I was sitting on my living room floor just taking in all the craziness that has made my life... and it made me smile. I have found myself taken back when I just sit for a moment and breath while my 2 boys are playing, crying, laughing, sleeping, or sitting next to me looking at me for an answer or a simple moment of a mothers love. These moments make tears fall from my eyes that burn from few hours of sleep and fill me with the greatest joy and happiness that only comes from being a mother. It amazes me how happy my children can make me when I feel as if my world is falling apart, or I'm just so worn down I cant give any more... but a smile, I love you, or the sweet laughter of my children gives me reason to get up and keep going, to look at all that is wrong and look at the things that make life beautiful.
I am thankful for the chance that I have been given to bring healthy little boys into this world and try to teach them the ways that will make my Heavenly Father happy and proud. I'm thankful for a husband that has more strength, is more forgiving then anyone truly knows... He has been my saving grace. I know the Lord saved him just for me and my boys, he loves with all his heart not just enough but more then enough.
I pray for these moments at times I feel I need an extra push, and even just to have that close moment with my sweet boys. I'm excited to have another little boy running around driving me crazy, making me wonder if I am EVER going to get the laundry or dishes done, and going to the store more then I need to because they have already gone through 6 gallons of milk before the end of the week has gotten here. When people think I have my hands full or will I already know that, my hands will be full... full of life, love, joy, and I'm sure many gross things. BUT the Lord has picked ME as their mother to raise these 3 sweet boys that will forever belong to me. For that I am eternally grateful.
